retaining momentum

"it's not so bad, it's not so bad..." - dido, "thank you"

"i have to admit it's getting better, it's getting better all the time" - the beatles, "getting better"

"when you are moving fast you can succeed, just how long can you last at twice the speed?" - chaka khan, "heed the warning"

that's about the only way i can summarize my position now. i love making progress, i love being on the upswing, i love when i'm going for it and there seems to be no end in sight.

however.

i have learned from living that life isn't always upswing and it has seemed so far that exhilarating climbs are almost always followed by anticlimactic rallentandos. sometimes i sell myself short by trying to stay one step ahead of the trend and just dive straight down before i can lose the momentum in the first place. it's the equivalent of preventing rejection by not even walking across the floor to ask the pretty girl to dance.

i know in theory that that's always a bad thing to do, but man, i hate those let-downs. i suppose i'm not expecting failure to show up at my door in the next 30 minutes like a pizza order or something, but i've been having a really good time now for what seems like too long a time, so i'm bracing for the cops to show up and declare the party over for the night.

i'm not a pessimist. i'm actually supposed to have this fearless warrior mentality based on my personality and what my name means alone. well, i'm capable of it, but it's had a really long nap and it's kinda groggy waking up so i don't feel so much up to the challenge as i would have, oh, say, like 6 years ago when i first started doing this Christian thing and i was ready to take on the world. not dead. just apprehensive.

anyway, what i do know is that life is good right now. my customers are happy, creativity is flowing, cash is lately less ebbing and more and more flowing, health is top notch, car is running great, and i can't see the back of the refrigerator (if you don't know what i mean, then good for you!)

so i guess, my admonition for the day is: eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow it's possible that we could die, but just in case we don't, at least we'll have eaten, drank, and have to show for it that wonderful sense of well-being that only a turkey bacon sandwich on wheat bread with monterey jack cheese and fresh tomatoes can give.

"first u were bitten but now twice shy / i believe the storm is passing by / if u syng, he'll take away ur pain / he's the 1 who knows just what ur saying in your brain" - tonex, "syng"