released

ok, i feel like i can deal now. whatever two days ago, i was glutted with some concern. i'm not quite sure what it was, but post prayer and meditation, i feel much better. i feel like i can move around now. this morning was so storybook because my curtains were open, sunshine was coming through, and the only thing missing was birds chirping. and perhaps a short stack of pancakes. i work do without those for now.

i just want to do go back through the areas where i've sloughed off and do damage control before the damage is too unwieldy to control. had an incredible bout with malaisse lately, but i think i'm ok now.

earlier this year, i learned in a psychology class that if you keep an animal confined in a cage long enough, eventually it stops trying to get loose and becomes resigned to the position it's in. so much so that after such a point, even if you open the door, the animal won't immediately go through it.

well, recently, i got liberated from some slow equipment that was holding down my productivity. however, i've been so used to working at that pace that even though i'm now free to fly, it has seemed like i just didn't want to embrace it. for weeks now. it's nice that that's finally over, but i still have some learning curves to get over before i can really start makin' some noise.

nonetheless, it is good to be free.